It's talk, just Talk.

Don't make me sad, don't make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough I don't know why
Keep making me laugh, let's go get high
The road is long we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words, this is the last time

Cos you and I
We were born to die.

SIP launch today. Slowly my bubble protecting me from reality pops.

Spent a BOMB on formal wear shopping with Vanessa.
So depressing watching my bank account deplete so fast within a day.
But at least I have nice clothes now heh.

...
Can't focus on anything right now because SIP is in 4 days.
4 days.
4 DAYS.
Omgomgomg freaking out but not freaking out but omg INTERNSHIP IN 4 DAYS.

Shitshitshit I'm scared.

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company

But that was love and it's an ache I still remember.

March is coming to an end soon.
I turned 19 five days ago and I don't feel any different. Nothing's changed much.

My mind feels blank.
It seems like my priorities right now are
It's almost the end of March, which means April is almost here, which means INTERNSHIP ZOMGGG.
Which means it's my last chance to drink drink drink dance dance dance party party partyyyy until I have to stop. (grab somebody sexy tell 'em hey!)

Nothing else matters for now. Nothing else.

I wasn't expecting my birthday to be much of an event this year so imagine my surprise when I went to Bugis expecting to just meet Yuan Xiu and instead have a giant Mickey Mouse thrust in my face and friends I haven't seen in the longest time smiling at me and wishing me happy birthday!!
I think it's actually the first time in my 19 years that I've gotten a surprise like this! Shocked beyond words and so happy I literally couldn't stop smiling to myself on the way home after the movie.



I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH YOU AMAZING AMAZING PEOPLE. <3333

"...the universe still gives you people to love, then they slip through your fingers like water, and then what've you got?"

Urgh this show has to continually break my heart. Every second season for all 3 generations.
You cannot amuse like this at the beginning of an episode and then leave me bawling my eyes out by the end. Urgh. I am just. Speechless. ABSURD.

It's already the 4th day of February. One minute I am trying to survive January and the next minute it's gone just like that. Poof.
Just going through the motions.
Just waiting for this month to end so I can finally get a life.

Right now I'm just living for the moments where I'm high and can't feel anything except happy.
That's it, every Friday drink and and dance till you drop.
So thankful I have Miss Wongahsoh in my life.

The Buzz and the Bass take all the fuckery away.
So party till you drop and don't ever regret a single moment.
Can't wait for CNY and the ang baos!
Just a few more weeks people! Hang in there!

I can summarise 2011 in 3 parts. The Beginning, The Middle, and The End.

The Beginning was when I was pretty happy and experiencing new things and being with people and learning more about people and the world.
The Middle was a fucked up blur where shit got real and I lost people I never thought I would lose and my entire view of everything, especially people, changed.
The End is pretty much my most favourite part of the year where I got to enjoy life again, hang out with fun people AND finally do the one thing I have wanted to do for so long. (And also where I got so broke I ended the year in debt lol)

But it's time to move on from regrets and things we did wrong and the shit we went through.
I'm sorry for the drama and the rubbish. I hope we've grown to be better people.
I'm sorry things didn't work out. But I genuinely wish you nothing but the best. You deserve better.
Also I'm sorry I didn't have the courage to say this to your faces.

Here's to a new year, a fresh start, and brand new challenges.
Happy 2012 everyone!

So hi. You.
I was going to respond to your blog posts. (Yes I read your blog. If those 4 years as friends meant anything that wouldn't surprise you.)
But now I'm just really tired and very confused.
Am I missing something here?

I believe you're talking about me when you say "I really do not know what the hell you go tell people", and I'm trying to figure this out.
The only people I talked to about what happened to us were not very close to you anyway or don't know you at all, with the exception of YX.
The friend that I assume that you are talking about, I have not said a word to. (We do need to talk though I'm afraid he might be mad at me welp)
The other possible friend that you could be talking about only knows we're not talking and the most I told him was that you're a stupid cow. (Unless you or yx told him what happened)
So I don't understand what's happening here.
Care to enlighten me?

(Btw, you thought I was feeling indifferent that time? Hahahahahahha you have no bloody idea how I feel.)